Decisions , Decisions, Decisions.

Decisions , Decisions, Decisions, use to be so simple for me. Processing an outcome and the best way to handle a situation. I was looking forward to visiting my best friend Shelly in Charlotte. We always had loads of fun, genuinely enjoy each other's company. Fun, fun, fun, when we get together📷 we are family, Shelly is my sister. I tried to explain I don't quite process things the same, it can feel overwhelming , but I keep flowing.

She has to work tomorrow so we are barbecuing today, and she requested I make Spanish rice. So we're off to the supermarket to get the fresh ingredients for sofrito, it's about to go down , I'm using garlic cloves, onions, pepper, cilantro and olive oil, I got this.

Lee get want you want for breakfast? Okay I want pancakes, should I get a small box or the bigger one? Shelly said, get what you want and I said I want to get something that will be eaten and not go to waste. Shelly should I get a big box or small one? Lee get what you want. Can you help me please? Lee your making it difficult and I walk away pushing the cart because I just want her to make the decision.

Shelly then grabs the big box. It’s sounds simple right...for someone with MS, if we ask for help, please just help. Also, let’s explain to friends and family things are just a little different with you...be transparent it helps them to understand.

People That Care

There still good people in the world!

I had a horrible customer service experience with a major furniture store. I purchased an adjustable bed that was too high for my mom. My 80 year old mom fell as a result, and when I contacted them, they said there would be a person sent to service it. Well three days later they came and left...I was not there, but the company told my sister it could not be adjusted. Of course, I called back and asked if they could take off the wheels and their response was oh the wheels are attached to the legs and it could not be lowered. Unreal, the lazy no good, non caring customer service totally sucks. I politely asked for alternative options; they did no research and said I can buy a lower frame for $1,000.00 dollars! Unacceptable! So I went to my local Home Depot to see if we could find a step stool and the ones they had were mostly for working. I spoke with a rep there and explained my frustration and what I would like. He proceeded to show me what they had and I said it wouldn’t be safe. We walked around and stop and spoke with another rep who said we can make it, and it would of be ready by that evening. I was thrilled and delighted that now I’m getting something custom made to help my mom step into bed with room to stand securely. I went to pick it up and Chris brought it out for me. I said how much do I owe you and said it was his pleasure to know that my mom would be safe! Thank you to Mr. Christopher Nelson who happened to be the store manager. My mom now loves her bed and is safe! Chris cares about people, God Bless him and continue to use him mightily! All Glory to God!

My Mind is Telling Me Yes But ...

My mind is telling yes, but my body is telling me no. Sometimes plans just don't work out. I'm looking forward to walking a Roy Wilkins park after work with Jody!

We are eating right and trying to get our heart rate up and blood flowing. What better way to do it than a good brisk walk. Today I spent a day at work and by the time I travel home, I'm thoroughly exhausted☹️ Bummer because Jody and I are walking today! I call her and tell her I'm not going to make it. I don't want to disappoint her again, but I don't feel up to it. I've pushed myself at times to go walking, but most times I'm best after I have rested. No, I'm not lazy, and I'm sorry, but I'm physically not up to it. This is not an excuse. I really don't understand why I'm feeling so beat.

As I reflect on the last ten years or so, my emotional, physical, financial and Spiritual State, I realize that prior to 2008 I was very stable, across the board in every area of my life, emotionally with relationships enjoying raising my son, physically I felt good and looked good, traveled effortlessly and could buy virtually whatever I wanted within reason.

Spiritually, I was connected to the Holy Spirit and the work of the Lord. However, at different points I fell into traps, traps the enemy had set. Not realizing that compromise comes with a price. Still I love the Lord, but was I trusting him?

Not so much, today I no longer have relationships with some people and that is good, and others particularly with my family I am mending. Above all else my relationship with the Lord is pretty solid and I am working on it day by day. My physical condition is challenged because of the MS but I trust God, my financial condition is strained to the point I was purchasing food by credit card, and frivolously spending, as if it was ten years ago. I realize when you stay the course and do the work of the Lord, taking care of His business, God provides. When you find yourself dealing with somewhat of a downward spiral of events. Look to the Lord to guide you and strengthen you. “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”2 Corinthians 12:9 KJV

For when you are weak He is strong and by trusting Him you will be restored in Jesus name. Do nothing on your own accord but seek Him in all things. (Matt 6:33)

My son, do not despise the chastening of the LORD, Nor detest His correction; (Proverbs 3:11) NKJV